Day #85 of the year
Yesterday I decided to embark on a write a post a day journey. It wasn’t planned or anything, it came as a revelation as I sat at one of my favorite Starbucks location. I enjoyed reading, writing and math in school, all of which I did not pursue pass high school. I really wish I had a mentor or someone to make me fall in love with math, English and writing. I randomly made a pact with myself to write at least one post a day as way of practicing my writing and hopefully develop a love and confidence that I yearn for.
I went to church this morning and really enjoyed the sermon. The pastor talked about courtship and dating using the whole verse of Genesis 24 as his base. My favorite take home was the bit on contentment. A principle I think is applicable to people of all spectrum, and not exclusive to Christians. It sounds like something that should be obvious and a natural response to how we treat our selves and others during these trying times – haa. I reflected on this principle for a while and found within myself the very same longing you hear about of wanting to be married, having kids and all that bluh. The reason why this contentment piece was so convicting is because I felt guilty, first because one of my favorite verses in the whole world is Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Secondly, the sadness/loneliness/feelings of incomplete brought by being single are time consuming and a waste of time.
To be honest, I would like to be in a relationship, I would like to be married, and I would like to have a family of my own, just not now. I have learned so much from just being single for five years now (giggles), it has been a while y’all. I have learned so much about myself, my hopes for the future, so much that I wouldn’t have learned otherwise, and have a lot more to learn. I am just now learning to enjoy this time and am loving it, sort of, kind of.
For now, I’m just gonna have fun in my being single, because there’s beauty there too.
Have a blessed day, and thank you for stopping by.